It's been a little while since I posted last as I'm sure you've already figured out. Well, for those of you who read this, a lot has been happening over the last month and a half. Things with my internship have picked up and my boss just announced that she will be leaving at the end of the week for a new awesome job. Which is great...except for all of the extra work my co-worker friend and I get to do until we hire a new Director (Yay, go to team!).
You know, with everything going on, I could easily say " nah, it's too much, I quit!", but I'm choosing to stick it out...why? Well, because there's a calling on my life (duh). God has called me for such a time as this (Esther 4:14)... Me specifically, in THIS particular moment. There's nothing the enemy hates more than us knowing and walking out the purpose God has for us. After all he is the author of confusion (that punk). With all the spinning plates, I started to feel myself struggling with mediocre performance pretty much all the areas of my like...it was like I was doing a whole bunch...a bunch of everything and nothing at the same time. Can I be real?! My quiet time sucked, I was spending money frivolously, my marcos were all off balance and sabbath day cardio was non- existent. I've been acting so out of character lately...desperately wanting to love people well, but I was actually being a disservice to them because I was neglecting my self- care. None of my old routines were working! Why?!?
SO what did I do?! I talked to my spiritual parents about how to get my life back together. In discussing with them, we decided that I needed to let myself off the hook to reset my daily rhythms in this season. This was really hard for me, but I realized that without taking a moment (or a week in this case) to intentionally slow down, in reality lead to not stewarding my calling responsibly.
That really got me thinking about how often times we can get to a place where all of a sudden we realize...we have NO idea what we're doing! LOL In those moments we can choose to give into the pressure of anxiety and stress (everything will eventually fall apart if we stay here) or will we find rest in knowing that God's got us (working in His strength and not my own. Sometimes we just have to do a hard reset on our lives, wipe out all the old and start fresh. Sometimes we have to update our lives with new software that is compatible with the new seasons in our lives.
I know I'm not the only one! Come on people, let's get our lives together and rest in the truth that God can and will continue to run the universe while we rest!XO